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Dear Rhylan

Dear Rhy Guy, 

 Over the last year, it goes without saying that your life has drastically changed! It used to be you and me against the world. I just want you to know that even though you are big brother now, my love for you will never change. You will always be my first baby and I am so very proud of the little boy you are and the man that you will become. 

 I'm sorry that I am not always readily available like I was in the past. But know that your needs are still among my top priorities and even though I can't always be right there, right now, that I'm always doing my best to give you and your sisters the best care possible. I love our little moments; our evening snuggles when the babies are asleep, our movie dates, our games of tag and I love taking you with me on my outings. 

 I promise to always make that extra time for you, just you. It's important for us to reconnect whenever possible. Thank you for being my little helper with the babies and for loving them with all of your heart. When I step out of the room and hear you talk to them, telling them how much you love them and saying "hey baby girl", my heart absolutely melts. Thank you for your open mind and for jumping into the big brother role. It was a bit of a rocky start, but I really didn't know how to prepare you. Most kids get one sibling at at a time and you were blessed with two! God knew that if anyone can handle the big brother role times TWO, that it was you! 


I just want you to know how very proud you've made me and continue to make me day after day. You are an amazing kiddo and an incredible big brother. I look forward to when the girls can join you in an endless game of tag, but I don't want any of you to grow too fast. 

 I love you "THIS MUCH"! 
Mommy

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