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The Back to School Sh*t Show

Most days I feel like I've been on a whirlwind adventure before I even make it into the office!

It's here. I've lived in denial, but now I can't escape it. Back to school. I feel like I'm among a select few of the moms who dread back-to-school time. Lately when I talk to other parents, they are excited for school to start. They are anticipating empty houses, routines, activities and milestones. And while I appreciate those things as well, I am just not ready for the demands that come with back to school.

Seriously, I get so much anxiety thinking about it. Back to school brings added chaos to our already chaotic life. While some enjoy an empty home, mine becomes like Grand Central Station. Don't get me wrong, I am so very thankful for the help and support of family and the ability to have my kids in their care. It's just very tough going to work for eight hours and coming home to a home that has been very well lived in while I'm away.

Back to school means this mom gets up extra early to get herself ready for work, before the morning sh*t show commences. I love to sleep and the extra hour that I get during summer break is something I loveeeee! I'm not even going to deny it. I love not having to get the kiddos up, dressed, fed, teeth brushed and out the door. Judge me if you'd like, but I love sleep!

Calendars on calendars. Can we talk about that? I am that mom who always tries to stay on top of her game. I live by my family calendar app, my home wall calendar and my purse planner. At the same time, something always gets missed. There's often some kind of disconnect and it makes me crazy. I just don't understand how some moms are in the know about all of the things, including school functions, yet I'm over here oblivious that they are coming until they hit me in the face on the day of or even the day after sometimes. What is up with that?

Mom anxiety from the expectations, scheduling, lunch planning and to-do lists is a very real thing. I don't open up about this side of me, but it's real. Most days I feel like I've been on a whirlwind adventure before I even make it into the office! I'm on the hunt for two things...first, a personal assistant to help me juggle work and mom life and secondly, a little mom tribe from our school to make sure each other remains in the know and doesn't miss anything. Obviously, I can't afford the personal assistant, but I'd love that mom tribe! I'm already recruiting them!

To you moms who just don't understand why I am not excited for school to start, tell me your secrets to this back to school bliss! I want to join in! Thursday, when that school bus door swings open and my third grader climbs aboard and when I drop my twins off at preschool, I will say a prayer that this year, mom stays in the know and overall stresses less.

One day at a time....that's why they make wine, right?


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