Hot Mess Mommy Express

My first baby turned four....FOUR! How on earth does that happen in what feels like the blink of an eye? It made me realize that my little babies will before I know it, grow up just like my first born. It really puts things into perspective when you celebrate another birthday. It reopened my eyes to the fact that you only get those first couple years, the baby years, one time. I try my best to take everything in, take videos and pictures and hold all three of my kids close. Sometimes, I just drop everything and hold them, granted my four year old is hard to catch these days.  Talk about tugging the heart strings! Last night after I put the babies down for the night, we decided to sit on the couch and watch Rhylan's baby videos from his first year. We want to make it a tradition! Not long into the video, we noticed that Rhylan had tears streaming down his face. When asked what was wrong, he responded with "I can't be that little again." and the tears continued to flo...

This has been weighing on my mind for over eight weeks now. I'm not sure how to get past it or if I ever will. At least once a day, the emotions that I felt in that moment come flooding back. I see his face and the hurt in his eyes. I see the spirit and excitement draining from his face. I feel that pit in my stomach every time I think about it and from time to time, I find myself holding back the tears.  I don't think this person realizes the amount of hurt that they brought into such a joyous occasion. And to act like nothing happened makes it hurt even worse. I will never forget how that felt and it will always be a memory. I don't know how we're supposed to forgive and forget or if we ever will. But I know that my feelings toward this person will never be the same.  You can't take back the things that were said and I wish you would've been understanding of where we were coming from and supportive of our decisions. Instead you decided to lash out via text...

If I haven't been on the blog for quite some time, it's because these sweet little girls (and four year old too) are keeping me busy! And I wouldn't have it any other way. These last 12 weeks have been unbelievably amazing! I cannot believe that after this month, I will be returning to my full-time job. It's a mixed emotion feeling, because being with my kids each and every day is wonderful! At the same time, we are a two income family and I wish that we could afford for me to be a stay-at-home mom, but that is just not going to happen. Plus, I am so proud of the fact that we work hard for everything that we have.  I'd be lying if I said that our funds are not super tight right now. In a way, it makes me a bit eager to return to work. It will be nice to have the financial stability again. I know that there are a lot of one income families out there and my props go out to you for making it work! At the same time, not working makes me miss adult interaction and the ...

This blog is a bit of a rant, so if you don't like that, I'd recommend that you do not continue. It's some thoughts that I just need to get off of my chest and I hope they can be an eye opener for some that really need to broaden their perspective.  My sister and I went out of town to Christmas shop yesterday, which was a great day and a much needed escape from my house. Granted, I didn't mark a single person off of my shopping list! How does that happen? I still have a long road of holiday shopping ahead of me! I love this time of year, so I don't mind! What I do mind is the absolute ignorance of much of the general public when they spot a multiple mom with her kids. I cannot wrap my head around why it's such a spectacle that must be commented on. Why are some people so negative and rude? I just want to be able to go out to eat, walk through the mall and keep to myself without any awful comments.  I absolutely love those that are kind and congratulat...

I've been thinking a lot lately about the society that we live in and how everyone is so incredibly focused on their cell phones, tablets, computers, email and social media in general. What did we do before Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and before smart phones? Sometimes I stop and look at my kids and think about how many moments we miss out on, because we are always looking down at our phones for a notification or staring at the computer for Facebook notifications. I'm even contradicting myself by sitting here writing this blog.  Having added twins to my family, I find that I don't have as much time for social media, which I consider a good thing. When someone says, "Hey did you see that about so and so on Facebook?" My response is usually no. And to be honest, I am proud of that. Sometimes I really do wish that we could go back in time before smart phones, before instant gratification and back to the time when we had to physically speak to someone to get to kn...

Seven pounds stand between me and my pre-pregnancy weight! It's hard to believe that I had my six week postpartum doctor visit already. I feel like I blinked and suddenly my girls are growing and I am feeling like me again. I'm cleared for exercise and I am so anxious to get myself back into the gym! Getting out of the house when you're juggling twins plus a three year old is definitely a challenge, but I will make it work or exercise at home. I'm not sure why this pregnancy was so different (aside from the fact that it was a twin pregnancy). After I had my son, I really had to bust my bootie to lose the weight and then some! I thought once I got pregnant with twins, that it would be twice as hard. I feel incredibly blessed to have gotten back into my clothes so incredibly fast. I felt like everything I took in while pregnant went straight to the twins! That and I stayed as active as possible throughout the 39 weeks that I carried my babies.  I really encourage anyo...

We haven't been out very much, but when we do, the comments and statements start to come! The general public acts like twins are such a spectacle! So here is some of what I've heard thus far. Enjoy!  AWWWWWW TWINNNNSSSSS!!!!  We hear this one a lot!  Do twins run in your family?  Yes, yes, a thousand times YES! Will they be identical? Obviously if they are not identical at birth, then they will not all of a sudden change to identical. Think people!  I couldn't do it.  If you were given two babies, I'm pretty sure you would DO IT!  Glad it's you and not me.  I'm glad it's me and not you as well. Goodness! Don't have anymore children. After all, how are you going to juggle three babies?  Thanks a lot lady in Gordmans for this ignorant statement.  You sure have your hands full.  To which I respond with yes, I'm truly blessed.  Wow! Someone's awfully busy! I sure am and I wouldn't have it any other way. AW...