Hot Mess Mommy Express

My child ate a poptart today......I know! A freaking poptart! How on earth can I let my child eat something so terrible? I know it's not "organic" or "whole grain" or "all natural", but you know what? I'm normal. Some days I just don't have it in me to make a nutritious breakfast. And when you have a picky eater like my five year old, you're just thankful he is getting something in his stomach before school.  I know that this popular toaster pastry isn’t exactly packed with vitamins and nutrients. However, I didn’t realize that you are better off skipping breakfast altogether than downing one as you dash out the door. Why does society have to find such a problem with each and every food item that we consume? And why are we all so worried about what every mom is feeding her child? Stop showing me articles that are swirling around on social media that break down various foods and why you shouldn't eat them. I get it! I know what...

There's absolutely nothing that can compare to snuggling not one but two newborns on your chest as they sleep. And lately I find myself missing that aspect of being a twin mom. As I watch you two run around like crazy, carry on conversations, dance, laugh and play, I can't help but think to myself "Did I really cherish those moments enough?" or "Was I too busy and overwhelmed to realize that they were flying by?" Lately among the chaos that is our world today, I long for those moments again.  I can still feel the warmth of two babies snuggled up together on my chest. I can still smell that sweet baby smell of your fuzzy little heads. I remember being unable to move, because I didn't want to wake you and worried that if I did move, that I may lose my grip. I wish that I would've held you just a little bit longer and really taken those moments in. Before I knew it, you became little people.  I see you; two little people with personalities and opini...

And just like that, my sweet girls are two years old! And while it's been a month since we celebrated, I can't help but still struggle to wrap my head around the fact that you are no longer "babies". Of course, I always tell you that you'll be my babies forever and ever, but you really are transforming each and everyday into little individuals. You now have opinions. You can physically tell me through words what you want and need. You're potty training! How did this happen?  For a Party Planning Momma, it's all in the details! Let's relive your special birthday party! We kept it small and intimate this year, so that you were surrounded by those who you are closest too. It was absolutely perfect! There were a few people missing that we wish could've joined us, but you are without a doubt so loved!  Because your current obsession is Mickey and Minnie Mouse, it was a given that we would choose that theme for your party! So we gave you your...

"The greatest happiness is family happiness." I can think back to the day when Rhylan was old enough to comprehend that Mommy and Daddy have to go to work and he wondered why. There are days when my girls cry, like today, because they don't understand why they can't go "buh bye" with Mommy. Just know that as I watched you both slide your sandals on with your pajamas, my heart hurt. I wish I could take you with me. There are those days when I wonder if I'm missing out. Do you miss me when I'm gone? Just know that while I'm working away to provide for our family, that I miss you all every single minute. Also know that you are the motivation behind everything that I do.  Unlike Rhylan, who I was able to stay home with for a year, you girls have never really known a time when I stayed home. I went back to work when you were three months old and saved for the entire pregnancy to be able to do that. It was tough, money was tight and I wonder...

They know him by his Marine photo hanging on our wall. They know him from their Aunt Morgan's wedding photos. To them, he is Uncle "Dip". I'm talking about my brother Dylan who is currently stationed in Okinawa Japan. He left shortly after our daughters were born. And though we have FaceTime and text messaging, sometimes I wonder how they will react when they finally see him in person. Will they put two and two together? Will they be afraid as they usually are when someone new comes around?  We are thrilled that he is able to join us on our family trip to Florida this September and even more thrilled that he will be officially stationed back in the states later this year. Until that time comes we will continue to talk about Dylan with the girls. We will continue to look at those photos and let them point out who they like to refer to as "Dip". It makes us laugh as they say their own version of the word Dylan.  They say that time flies when you have child...

I'm pretty sure it was just yesterday that we took this picture, right?  Today it hit me as I just celebrated my own birthday that yours is just around the corner. In just three short months, you will be two.  I've gotten used to life with two. First it was two babies on the ultrasound. Then it was carrying two babies in my belly. Then out you came with a grand entrance that I'll never forget. And I knew my life was forever changed. I wondered if I could handle caring for two babies at once.  I'll always remember those first days and nights. Especially once your Dad returned to work and I realized that it was up to me. I was on my own with you. I can still see myself covered in spit up, a baby on each arm and using my feet to pick something up. I'm sure that was a sight to see! I can still feel both of your tiny warm bodies laying on my chest as I decided that I would let the housework go for the day. I knew in my heart that the time with you as infants w...

I'm sure that so many moms can relate when I say that it is very hard to remember what life was like before kids. What on earth did I do with all of my spare time? Just the other day, a post from seven years ago said that I was having a "cleaning and catching up on shows kind of day." Really? Okay, the cleaning part hasn't changed and my kids have just come to terms with it. Catching up on shows? Sleeping in? Doing things just because I could? There is one thing that has never changed...I always knew that I wanted to be a mom. Always!  There are some things that have changed in my last several years as a mom though and lately I find myself thinking about and realizing just how different I am now compared to then.  I've realized how important close friends are over having "many" friends. My twenties were filled with the ending of friendships that I thought would last for a lifetime. Some of which I still do not understand in regards to what happened....