Hot Mess Mommy Express

During the pregnancy, I did a blog post all about cloth diapering and everything that I was learning! I've received a lot of questions and I felt it necessary to do a follow-up on how it's going. We've been cloth diapering our girls for three months now and so far we are loving it! It has been unbelievably easy for us and I am so glad that we decided to make the investment. We knew that we were taking a large (and pricey) risk by purchasing enough cloth diapers for two babies. I wouldn't change it (no pun intended) for anything!  If you don't mind a few extra laundry loads here and there, then I highly encourage you to give it a try. Purchase a few and try it out. If it doesn't work for you, then there are tons of moms out there looking to buy the diapers secondhand. My biggest concern was cleaning them in my HE front loader wash machine. It gets the job done! And once you find a washing routine that works for you, it's a breeze. I'm getting ready t...

At almost 4 months old, it's time to really meet the girls and their personalities!  Night and day.....that's exactly what these two girls are! We have our little miss Everly; she is the most laid back baby on the planet. She literally just goes with the flow each and every day. She's so content and always happy. We have our little miss Emersyn; she's who we call the boss! If she wants something, she wants it right now! Is it bad that we can already sense future mischief from her?  It's amazing how their personalities from inside the womb remain outside. During my pregnancy, Emersyn was on my left side and she was constantly active, kicking all day long! I felt like a boxing match was going on in there! And during ultrasounds, she would always throw a limb into Everly's picture! Everly hardly moved, just hanging out in there. She did find a comfortable spot for her foot (my ribcage) and left it there for the last couple of months. It caused me so much dis...

.....of being a career mom. I always knew without a doubt that I'd be returning to work. Part of me wishes that we could afford for me to stay home with my kids, but the other part enjoys working and adult interaction. I feel like I worked really hard to earn my degree to go into marketing, plus I have a job that I enjoy with wonderful co-workers. Not everyone is that lucky! I'm very proud that I've made it through my first day without any tears and it actually feels really good to be working again. I am able to go home on my lunch break to snuggle and feed the babies, which is definitely helpful. I couldn't wait to pick them up when I got home! Forget lunch! I just want my babies! I'm enjoying getting myself back into a routine as well. I feel like when I'm not working, I forget to maintain my planner, my checkbook balance, menu planning, etc. I didn't realize how much of a structure is incorporated into my every day life just by going to work.  Every m...

My first baby turned four....FOUR! How on earth does that happen in what feels like the blink of an eye? It made me realize that my little babies will before I know it, grow up just like my first born. It really puts things into perspective when you celebrate another birthday. It reopened my eyes to the fact that you only get those first couple years, the baby years, one time. I try my best to take everything in, take videos and pictures and hold all three of my kids close. Sometimes, I just drop everything and hold them, granted my four year old is hard to catch these days.  Talk about tugging the heart strings! Last night after I put the babies down for the night, we decided to sit on the couch and watch Rhylan's baby videos from his first year. We want to make it a tradition! Not long into the video, we noticed that Rhylan had tears streaming down his face. When asked what was wrong, he responded with "I can't be that little again." and the tears continued to flo...

This has been weighing on my mind for over eight weeks now. I'm not sure how to get past it or if I ever will. At least once a day, the emotions that I felt in that moment come flooding back. I see his face and the hurt in his eyes. I see the spirit and excitement draining from his face. I feel that pit in my stomach every time I think about it and from time to time, I find myself holding back the tears.  I don't think this person realizes the amount of hurt that they brought into such a joyous occasion. And to act like nothing happened makes it hurt even worse. I will never forget how that felt and it will always be a memory. I don't know how we're supposed to forgive and forget or if we ever will. But I know that my feelings toward this person will never be the same.  You can't take back the things that were said and I wish you would've been understanding of where we were coming from and supportive of our decisions. Instead you decided to lash out via text...

If I haven't been on the blog for quite some time, it's because these sweet little girls (and four year old too) are keeping me busy! And I wouldn't have it any other way. These last 12 weeks have been unbelievably amazing! I cannot believe that after this month, I will be returning to my full-time job. It's a mixed emotion feeling, because being with my kids each and every day is wonderful! At the same time, we are a two income family and I wish that we could afford for me to be a stay-at-home mom, but that is just not going to happen. Plus, I am so proud of the fact that we work hard for everything that we have.  I'd be lying if I said that our funds are not super tight right now. In a way, it makes me a bit eager to return to work. It will be nice to have the financial stability again. I know that there are a lot of one income families out there and my props go out to you for making it work! At the same time, not working makes me miss adult interaction and the ...

This blog is a bit of a rant, so if you don't like that, I'd recommend that you do not continue. It's some thoughts that I just need to get off of my chest and I hope they can be an eye opener for some that really need to broaden their perspective.  My sister and I went out of town to Christmas shop yesterday, which was a great day and a much needed escape from my house. Granted, I didn't mark a single person off of my shopping list! How does that happen? I still have a long road of holiday shopping ahead of me! I love this time of year, so I don't mind! What I do mind is the absolute ignorance of much of the general public when they spot a multiple mom with her kids. I cannot wrap my head around why it's such a spectacle that must be commented on. Why are some people so negative and rude? I just want to be able to go out to eat, walk through the mall and keep to myself without any awful comments.  I absolutely love those that are kind and congratulat...